nO sMiLe is as BeaUtifUL as thE OnE tat StRuGGLe thRU tEaRs...

2006-11-28T11:16:00.001+08:00

Been super busy with work lately...
So many events in a week....

The previous event at Thai Embassy wuz a blast, had Danial(Kid's bro) & Wandy to work for me,"Bleh tahan Taxi"!!
And yeah....The THAI BOY WUZ FCK**NG hOT!!!
Cary wuz tryna matchmake...CRAZY!!

Get to meet all sorts of pple & also make lots of frens & the sickening part is tat all my working collegues are guys bt dey r nice pple...especially Jason...the cine handsome...

Event at Hilton cleared...n lottsss more to come....

I miss long hours in bed....wit my bantal ucuk....~

Aniwaeeee....hair's short nw...wakakakaa!!!

2006-11-28T11:16:00.000+08:00

2006-09-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

Oiiii korang tipuuu ar!!!
Benci ar!!!

Aku nk swimming se.....~

Benci arrrrrrgghhhhh!!!

Pujok aku ar krg!!!

2006-09-13T03:01:00.000+08:00

Eh Aden!Tanks ar eh...
Skrg aku dah sangkut ngan lagu tu!!!
Wakaka.. the song is like stuck in my head siak!!
Hahaha

Aniwae...wuz suppose to go ice-skating todae...bt had change of plans & ended up watchin luv wrecked instead...
The movie is kinda corky but wasnt so bad...

Imagine meeeeeEeee Wiiithhooouuutt Yooouuu Uuhhhh...Lalalaa...

Hahaha!!

2006-09-12T02:45:00.000+08:00

Ive actually ask fer ur help more den a month ago..

You r tired & lazy..

Wen tat stupid Afiqah lesbo made u cry at work den u tink of me,bout neglecting me..
Wen ur partners were fcuked up,u call & complain to me..

I dun mind...coz u r my BESTFREN siak!
I wan to b the 1st to noe bout ur probs..1st to share ur probs..
Coz u were der fer me wen i needed u.. b4 u were close to ur partners..

Wen u r angry before & i noe its my fault,i look fer u up..i cal u...i msg u explaining myself...

And u sae u r tired & lazy?

Hw bout wen u accompany her onda phone til morning & had only few hours of sleep did u complain to her tat u were tired?

No! U told me! Bout ur sacrifices for Afiqah, bout wat u did fer her & shits & hw she backstabbed u at e end by calling u names n all!

And i...whom u claim is ur "BESTFREN" is gettin tis kind of treatment?
The bestfren who needed ur help badly fer her project...

2006-09-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

You can see my eyes, hear me wen i sae..
Darling,wen did we fall?Wen wuz it over?

I suppose its e price of falling in luv...

2006-09-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

I noe u haf always been der fer me wen i nid u & so do i..

Ive ask ur help so many times to help me on ur off day bt u nvr spare me tat 1 day

U've all e pple u nid nw.. U dun nid me animore rite...

2006-08-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

The Pontianak movie on channel 5 wuz so stupid!!
Yg seram theme song aje..bodoh nyer director!!

Aniwae...
Y do we haf to keep contradicting ourselves wen sumtimes wen the ans is rite infrnt of ourselves & infact sumtimes we jst knew it has been ZERO all along..

Bt time & time again...we try to convince ourselves coz we jst cant let go...

Sumtimes i myself dunnoe whether im playin dumb or im jst dumb...

Its a blessing to be loved..
Bt to love & nt getting any in return is just a torture...

2006-08-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Yes Zur & Ika..ive haf updated my rotting blog..

Fcked!Im stressing out wit flash & 3d again!!
Frm macpherson to tamp..irritating eeiii..

I miss e tupidttss pple in my life..Ida & Zur!!
Its been a long time since we bitch..
Ida is bz rotting at home!!
Zur tk jelak-jelak minum kopi!!

Ive so many tings to tel u grls..so many tings to complain... & damn i nid u grls rite nw... :'(

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there’s nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide...

P.S:Zur get ur ass dwn to Bdk Sth & help me wit my flash!Nk suroh tlg tutup kn tingkap..tk kuat...~

2006-04-15T04:20:00.000+08:00

Well 1stly...
TAKE THE LEAD is a must watch movie!!
The moves are smooooottthhhh!!!
Wun elaborate more but its slammin!!

*Taking a deeepp breath*

Haf anibodi..(it does goes out to everybody)
Wen look to his/her fren's/bf's/gf's eyes suddenly feel tat u no longer feel closer to dem?
Tis sound complicated,well its me whos makin it thou...just tis unsure feelin,confused,sumtin like u nt sure whether its e same person u once knew..

To be honest..im puzzled myself..
Am i contradicting myself?
Probably...im just confused..

Shit!!

2006-04-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

Wats wit breakups these days?

Tomorrow is like so called e 1st year of us being together & u haf made it official to everybodi tat we r off..

I admit...it wuz nvr a smooth sailing fer us..
We fite too much..
Too many cursing & swearing..
It wuz always on & off fer us..

No doubt its hard fer me but ders no point holding on since u said u are happy..happier without me...

I just dunnoe wat to add on..~

Aniwae..i wuz goin thru sum of my ol stuffs..
Sort of my love letters frm my ol cinta-cinta monyet & to tink of it... i've been keepin all tis letters & cards fer years!

I came upon a letter frm a close fren of mine,Su Yen back in secondary school,she wuz my smokin & bitchin khaki!Workin as a marketing executive @ EQ MUSIC...

Guess wat..e letter wuz dated 02112001..It wuz during our 'O' Levels period,& we actually went to Paya Lebar Coffee Bean almost everydae just to see tis guy frm dunno which Jc studyin wit his frens,he is cute thou,he look like a smurf..hahaha!!
We even got caught once smokin!!Hahahah!
We were e worst students frm e express stream!!
Well Su Yen,u were a treasured posession of mine..Miss u babe!!

I oso came across a few pages of printed log msgs of my xbf Brandon & my ol fren Umie,i actually read it & it suddenly strike me tat i've been having e same probs i had back den & infact tings r worse nw..
E log msg wuz bout 'ain is just hard to please' but it makes my smile wen he said tat "bt im able to struggle my way & find out every single tme"
He also ripped a cd fer & it has our picture together saying "To You My One & Only,I Love You Frm The Bottom Of My Hart,You Are All Tat I've Nw Hunny,Please Cum Back To Me....Bla Bla Bla"

Theres also a card frm him tat marks our 2 yrs+ being together,tellin me bout his pain & our love..

It hit me nw...tis is KARMA..
Its you Muhd Nuur whom i luv wit all my hart nw & i wan u to b happy..
& Since tis makes u happy...ill b contented thou it breaks my hart...

2005-12-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

Its been sum time now...but i stil feel ur presence...
I love u...i miss u...u were a part of me & u will always be...
U are my swithart...sugar pie...

2005-12-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

if only.....

2005-11-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

Wedding pics uploaded!!
Will update biler wen im free okie!!

Tanks to frens whu attend!!

2005-11-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

1stly HAPPIE BDAE MY BELOVED CUZ SHAHIDDA!!!
rite?..skali salah eh?

due to "e conflicts" we din get to celebrate Hari Raya together but im sure it doesnt effect our ties rite?
reli hop to c u at least tis SUNDAY!!

aniwae todae is alredi FRIDAY!!
BESOK NIKAH,
SUNDAY SANDING!!

wait a minute!
its nt me alrite...obviously my sister... haros pon kawin dah 10 tahun kawan tk penat penat ker?

I wish u all e best..may everything runs smoothly..InsyaAllah..
Memang bnyk dugaan...
But seriously tis is gettin me piss off...
Hw wud ANIBODI feel if some minah janda kacau her husband to be?
Well its true dey say "tepuk sebelah tgn tk berbunyi" but if pompuan tk menjual lelaki tk beli la oi!!!
Fu**#%! u noe tis pple! No sense of tak tau malu at all..so ugly, eyebrow like ultraman (ultraman ader kening ker?) hati saakiiiiittt!!

Aniwae WATEVA LA EHK ngan manusia manusia bodoh ni semua..
Tis is my blog!Im nt being racist & i dun tink its offensive either...u shudnt terasa it u din feel e guilt!!!!!!

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU LA!!
SEMOGA KE ANAK CUCU OK!!!
PENATTTTT TAAAUUUUU KEJEEEE NONNN STOOPP....

2005-10-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

Wat shud i do?

2005-10-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all of my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just believe

Because your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have...all of me

You used to captivate me By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have...all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your fears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have...all of me...

2005-09-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today is Fridae...& i actually went to skool..in fact im in skool rite now...
Woke up super early to be in skool...

Ite Tamp sux & i hate Ite Tamp & the pple here!!
My class is super damn boring unlike my rawking MMT2Y!!

Nobodi here beats dem...
I miss Zur..Ida..the irritatin boys...OAC..hahahah

I miss my overfried chicken popcorn..Kiwi wit Sprite...damn i miss dem all!!

The hot news is tat im debarred!!
Haf to write stupid appeal letter...AGAIN...~

Macpherson tulis sini pon tulis jugak....~

Last but nt least MMT2Y rawks!!!

2005-09-21T02:41:00.000+08:00

Todae is a fine dae...
Everythin went well & good..
But i must say im gettin mean...ner...~ muahahaha..

I noe i wuz kinda selfish n mean to "both" of u... but i just learned my lesson..
Tat is...tink fer myself instead of other pple..

Nitez...

"Im the princess & u the pauper"

Its a rainy dae...~

2005-09-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

It wuz just me, peach tea & cheese hot dog at 7-11..
The meal of the dae...

State of my body size i shudnt be cuttin dwn on food rite but....~

Wat the hell is happenin to my lyfe man?!
Club? Isnt tat entertainin animore...~
Alcohol? Errkk...~
NO LIFE SIAK AIN!!!

Bf? gone...i tink...~
Frens?do i haf ani?
Bestfren?Cummon shes bz ok...~
Cuzins?In lurve wit bf's of course..."JUMP"JUMP"...bluuerrgghh!!

Well ain...u cant always depend on others wen u r feelin dwn rite...
Im gonna b strong...fer my own sake...i wil get thru all tis shitty tings..

Pple whom i pinned my hopes on to turn their back on me...
Its alrite...
Lesson i learn..tat wil make me stronger...
Within 1 week... i had so many unpleasant shits fallin on to me...

Well at least i noe whos real & whos fakin it...~

Reasons...

2005-09-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

The whole week has been shitty fer me..
Everyting is over now..
Meaningless..

Im nt blaming u,y do u haf to take it in tat manner?
Y cant u take it in a +ve manner & make tings more simpler?

If u tink it wuz hard fer u it wasnt any easier fer me either...
Everyting happen fer a reason...

Til den...~

2005-09-17T02:51:00.000+08:00

Issit happenin again?
Wuz i wrong to react tis way?
I nearly went crazy the other time bcoz of u but u took advantage of me & said dos words...

I leaned back & set my mind straight...u dun haf any reasons to blame me fer the way i act now...coz u made me tis way...

Tings haf change...
Its nt the same animore...
U made it tis way...

Pls respect my decision...
Do not worsen the situation or it wun cum to any good end either...~
Pls..i mean it...~

Hopelessly Devoted To You...

2005-09-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

Guess mine is not the first heart broken,

my eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know,

there's just no gettin' over you

Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around

and wait for you

But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else

for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide,

since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,

hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you,

hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying "fool, forget him",

my heart is saying "don't let go"

Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do

I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide,

since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,

hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you,

hopelessly devoted to you

2005-08-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

Pretty Princess....

It wuz only last nite, my cuz Qayyum sent it to my place...
And todae shes gone....i din even get to see her todae...
My pretty princess got hit by a stupid human driving a car...

She wuz so small yet so quick & so smart...
She wuz so pretty & soooo adorable...
Look at her..isnt she beautiful..

I cudnt even take care of 1 small lil kitten...
I wuz so careless..so incapable...

Im so sorry...sorry fer i din take care of u very well...
U r the most beautiful thing tat has happen to me...
I lurve u....my pretty princess...~

2005-08-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

U had to just spoil my mood @ the verryy end of the nite ehk?!
Waited fer u to watch ur tv & cukuuuupp time nk tdo!
Cantek skali!Mcm konek arh!

But wateva it is i dun wanna b bothered but ur tis cocked up shit...~
COz i blardy had fun earlier todae...~

Zur...we stil haf to continue our bitchin stories coz it wuz interupted but our stupid games @ esplanade..

Man,Iman,Zan,Win,Aidhil & Gf were actually fooled by ZUR wit her stupid jokes & games...muahahaha...

Tapi yg penting we had fun rite?!

If onli Ida wuz der...our Sassy grls out will soon to cum ehk...~

Den & nOw

2005-08-06T14:30:00.000+08:00

Saturdae....
AIN sittin infront of the monitor...updating bout her boring Saturdae routine...
Obviously clubs & bars is nt in her schedule animore...
BUTTTTT....~

She doesnt even noe wat is she gonna do to kill her time...

BBQ @ huda's place....
Venue:CCK
Time:5pm
Jauh nak mampos eh...keras aku kt dlm mrt...

Cycling to ecp?Mkn ubat & tdo sampai keras?

Entah la ehk....~

My Bdae...

2005-08-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

Been super duper mls to update but i specially "rajinkn" diri todae coz i tink i RELI NID TO UPDATE...coz sum SUPER DUPER ANGELS deserve their names to be type out...

Lotsa wonderful & unhappy tings haf been happening but im lucky to haf sum pple to guide, comfort & always remind me bout HIM, the greatest,he can gaf us happiness & also take it back...illness.. or anitin to make us realise & sumtimes mungkin ader hikmah sebalik penyakit yg tidak kite inginkn...~

Nk atau pon tknk...kiter harus menerima segala dugaanNYA dan melalui nyer dgn tabah...

Turning 20 tis year wasnt bout partying animore,clubs,pubs,bar,alcohol..high on !#@$%
I've been der..done all tat..partying wuz like a MUST ROUTINE fer me,cant deny tat it wuz 1 of the damn most happening part of my life but tis year is more special... i had the MOST DEAREST PPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD TO CELEBRATE IT WIT ME...~

Lets start off wit the last few mins off the countdown...nOi actually hold my hands coz we were inda cab..on our way back home,she wanted to b the 1st to wish me & she did but as bout the clock to tick to 12 my BABEY...surprisingly msg me to mit him under the blk...we actually kinda argue b4 tat coz he pretended nt wanting to mit me & i actually fell fer tat coz my superwoman bestfren ZUR...pakat wit him!!! arrgghhh!!!

Tanks fer the necklace & the bear tat reli resembles u syg...~
I lurve it...I lurve the surprise...& i lurve u...~

The 2nd surprise wuz @ 7-11... get to eat my fav choclate bdae cake frm my beloved cuzins...
It wuz nice reli...i appreciate it..tank u so much..sori i cancelled the BBQ u grls planned fer me..tank u fer understanding the plight i wuz in...

Seriously the 3rd surprise wuz frm unexpected pple...
On Saturday afternoon...blom mandi..sungguh bosan sambil menonton tv...
Aden makcik yg sungguh pandai dah sukerrr memandai-mandai telefon...Kater nk jumpe sekejab je kt bawa...jadi kiter yg blom mandi ni turun la bawa dgn seluar pendek yg mcm rainbow kolor kolor dan tk "ehem"..dgn jacket ajer...
Dgn keadaan loso..ku pon turun la kebawa...
Dgn terperanjanyer...dia mempersembahkn kek cokolat yg sunggu enak skali bersama Shymm & bunganyer yg sunggu cantek skali mcm AKU....hahahah...

It wuz reli unxpected to actually c u pple....but tank u tank u...it wuz verryy swiitt...
Sungguh terharu sayer...

Well...but den..i wuz feelin kinda pissed actually...coz my BESTFREN tk wish langsung... she even get Kak Emma & my hoorrnnyy Elfie to wish me & actually ask me out on...
Betul punyerrr kena preeekkk!!

Sunggu tkder keje eh krg eh...ZUR,IDA,SALIHIN & AFA...gang up bodoh2 kn aku lagik...~
Ingatkn asal la Salihin dtg srg pegi Bdk....skali dgr pulak suara suara sumbang yg menyanyikn berfdae song...~hahahahha
Tapi tkpe...aku suke mendgrnye!!!

Zur baked me the most delicious brownie u can find on planet earth...
Ida & Salihin got me the most beautiful bunga u can onli find on the moon...
Dan jgn marah...zUr belikn akak anting2 yg tk kurangnyer lawa mcm sayer yer...~

Sayer berasa teramatla gembira dan terharu pada hari itu tau...~
Tanks babe..i lurve u both...appreciate it...everything...reli...

Babey...my sugar...
Nenek...Mummy...Kakak...tkder krg tkder aku...~
My Cuzins...Segalanyer bagiku...
zUr...buah atikkuuuuu...~
Nina..Aden...Shymm....& JOEY!! kwn harapan bangsa...~

Tat day wuz nutin without u pple....
It means so much to me...
Luv u all...~
Tanks...frm the bottom of my hart..

*Pics will be post soooooonn...~

2005-06-20T01:21:00.001+08:00

ME!!!

2005-06-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

Ain

2005-06-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:16:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

Ain & Zur

2005-06-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

Ain & ZUr

2005-06-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:09:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

AinMonnZur

2005-06-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

Zur & Ain

2005-06-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

2005-06-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

Ain & Yan

2005-06-20T00:56:00.000+08:00

Monn & Ain

2005-06-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

Zur & Ain

Bowling

2005-05-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

I din noe bowling wuz so fun...
Seriously im a virgin bowler...it wuz my first time bowling in my whole life..so mcm jakun la sikit...
But u noe wat?!! I I did it like a professional bowler..SERIOUS!!
I even won the 1st game to KiD u noe!!
But i lost the 2nd game...coz i broke my thumb nail... so konon-konon injured la kn...

And yeah!! HARVEY NORMAN has beautiful, nice & comfortable beds!!
Im absolutely in lurve wit tis particular bed...it is quite low like dos platform beds...coz i cant sleep on beds tat is very high or i wun get to sleep...it also cum wit the mattress tat is soooooo.."fine" & the bed blooooorrdy cost 10K...

Tkpela blom mampu..yg kaya mak dan kakak aku...bkn aku...~

Bila la aku nk kaya ei....~

2005-05-15T02:24:00.001+08:00

.: taNiya :.

2005-05-15T02:24:00.000+08:00

.: KiD jUniOr :.

2005-05-15T02:23:00.000+08:00

.: taNiya :.

2005-05-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

.: taNiya :.

2005-05-15T02:21:00.000+08:00

.: KiD jUniOr :.

2005-05-15T02:20:00.000+08:00

.: KiD jUniOr :.

2005-05-15T02:19:00.000+08:00

.: taNiya & KiD :.

2005-05-07T03:30:00.000+08:00

Went Mustafa Centre & had supper at Serangoon wit my dearest KiD, Afa & Zack...

Mustafa Centre is such a hassle man!!
Nak masok pon nk kena ikat bag!!!
Leceh...Leceh...bosan...bosan...

Afa & i miss Clarke Quay so much!!
Missed BB's!! Eddy, Nas, Bai, Yvonne, Milda,Kevin & of course Aneh!!

Missed gettin drunk while workin!!
We will ride on the bungy whenever we got bored or sleepy...

Drop by Clarke Quay...its so nice now unlike last time...
But elephant pub getting more dull....
Hooters..forever u noe "wat"...
1 nite stand nvr fail to entertain dos crazy "ang mohs"..
Attica & Forbidden 100% happening!!
GothemPenthouse invinting more & more "malays" yg nk step "class" pdhl pdhl..

But wateva it is...its been 3 mnths now since i last visit these places...& quit drinkin...

YEi!!!!

But i do miss working at CLARKE QUAY!!

2005-05-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

Im sori....
Sori bout wat happened last nite....

Tank u fer accompanying me & nEnEk til Mummy balik just now...
I enjoy u feeding me the nuggets I FRIED...
I enjoyed the time we spent just now at home...

I luv u luv u luv u luv u luv luv u luv u..

2005-05-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

EH! APE NI?! TK PAHAM ARH!!!

Asal eh mcm gini?
Y now?
Wats happenin?

Wat is wrong wit me?!!
Ape eh masalah nyer?!

DUN LEAVE IT just like tat!!
I simply hate it!!

Im pissed!
Cum to me
Irritate me
Ask me

Dun leave me banging my head on the damn wall

2005-04-28T01:42:00.000+08:00

.: nOi EnGagEmEnt :.

2005-04-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

Suke Suke?

2005-04-28T01:37:00.001+08:00

Verryyy the "virgin"....

2005-04-28T01:37:00.000+08:00

Takut kan?!!

2005-04-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

The wannabes.... Shannaz Naserah Bannu & Fatehah Nyonya....

2005-04-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

nOt fOrgEttin....~

2005-04-28T01:32:00.000+08:00

Lawa kan!!!! Class gitUk... vEry the OvErUsEd!!

2005-04-28T01:31:00.000+08:00

.: Kakak Mummy aiN nOi :.

2005-04-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

.: nEnEk & nOi :.

2005-04-28T01:27:00.001+08:00

.: CharLiEs :.

2005-04-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

.: aFa & aiN :.

2005-04-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

.:nOi aiN aFa :.

2005-04-15T02:45:00.001+08:00

zUr taNiya iDa

2005-04-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

taNiya

2005-04-15T02:44:00.001+08:00

taNiya

2005-04-15T02:44:00.000+08:00

taNiya

2005-04-15T02:43:00.000+08:00

iDa & taNiya

2005-04-15T02:42:00.000+08:00

taNiya & iDa

2005-04-15T02:41:00.001+08:00

zUr & taNiya

2005-04-15T02:41:00.000+08:00

taNiya

Fuuuhhh...

2005-04-12T10:52:00.000+08:00

Morning..rise & shine...~
Fuuuuhhh..at last..its off my chest...
Even thou we kinda get along so well i just find it verrryyy harrrdd to actually tell u..wohohoho
Ei it took me damn alot of guts to actually msg u tat...
One of my embarassing moment of the year!!!!

It felt good thou...
I'm glad the outcome wuz verrryyy positive..

But u noe wat...i just adore u..
U took my breath away just like tat..."der u go"...hahahaha

Special tanks to my Charlies & SaSsieS...

Success!!

2005-04-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

ALHAMDULILLAH....

Kakak engagement wuz a success...
Very special tanks to my dearest zUr..

It wuz nice...kakak wuz so swit & verryyy prrreeettyyy arrrhhh!!!
She wuz bloordy nervous of course..she practically shiver wen her mother-in-law to be sarung the cincin...

Overall..everythin wuz ffiiiinnneee...
Tanks to my aunties...& cuzzins...for all the hard work & gifts fer kakak...
Tanks to my dearest kiD & my kiss kiss Zack fer comin...
Last but not least tanks to ME!!!
Fer being the camera babe & the maid of the dae...~
Muahahaha!

Will upload the pics soon..

I lurve u kakak...may u kawin cepat-cepat n make lotsa chubby arab babies...

2005-04-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

Stomach Cramps!!! Splittin headache!!!
Damn!
I feel like shit todae!
Screw me!!!!!

sEpEt!!!!

2005-04-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

.: KiD jUniOr :.

Special request frm CiK nOr coz he seems to like tis pic alot which i dun reli find it amusing at all coz i can even see his eyes..

He dislike the pic tat i recently posted that i find it way betta than tis one man!!

Of course since i wuz the camera lady!!!

Muahahahah!!

I just hate it

2005-03-31T09:31:00.000+08:00

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9.31 a.m

In class now...& i can fall asleep anytime now...
Not reli in a very good mood i'll sae..probably due to the lack of sleep...
Suprisingly I made it fer me morning classes todae but sliggghhhttly late la...
Well..nenek practically woke me up at 5+a.m coz she needs to go to the toilet despite wearing pampers.. She said its not comfortable doin "it" wit the pampers...

Serve me right fer sleeping at 2+ last nite...
KiD & I watched "The Pacifier" & " Be Cool" til like 12+
The movie wuz not so bad but it wasnt wat i actually xpected...

...::::::::....
5.39 p.m
Just woke up frm my super nap...
I bloordy deserve it as to claim all my sleepless nites wen nenek wuz in the hospital!!!
Gonna shower now...
Didi just came back frm her flight & LaLa Feroz just fly off last nite so she gonna fetch me & Afa to her place..
Her place is just fabulous man...she like has almost everythin in tat house...
Especially her kitchen..the fridge is like fullll of ice-creams,chocolates & i'll sae almost anitin!! I mean it man!!!

us 3

2005-03-30T14:35:00.000+08:00

IDA

Did not attend for PJT..Zur called me to wake up...i slept again...zzZZZ. went 4 nxt klas...DAVT...boring...d three of us went to ladies...ain & zur did their business,me sat by d sink..climbed up opened 2 small window... tats d end of my day...cant wait to get back home & sleep on my bed with my binik....... :)

AIN

As usual...apart frm tupit zUr..I'm the champion of nt cumin to 8.am classes bloordy cannot wake up inda mornin even thou i slept early last nite...

Nenek as usual will wake me up at 6am & sae she wanna mandi coz she tot it is alredi bright..but i lie to her & said it is stil nite...how i wish so i can sleep sumore...hahaha

The 1st person the I will c now wenever i woke up is Cik nOrmah coz she haf to bathe nenek & nenek forever takut sabun..funni rite..usually takut air ni takut sabun pulak!
Mummy bought mee siam which i tink cause me to go on a date wit zUr & Block D toilet... zUr will takeover the left toilet & I on the right..Ida forever is our tissue provider...

And yeah..just wrote Riki a letter..its been 2 mnths since he last wrote..maklom la org kt "USA" so busy la nk tulis surat... Seriously i cant wait fer his return in May...muahahaha...
Kid fecthin my frm skool in while..gonna go home, change & go out again...
Ida gonna go home & sleep...
zUr gonna go home to change & get redi fer her "date" later... hopefully tings will go well fer her... seriously i hope the date will actually make tings betta & hopefully go back as per normal...

ZUR

although i'm still tupid Zur...i came for my PJT class ok!!! 8 am okkkkkkk!!!! not late okkkkk!!!! muahahahahahha!!! ida seow already! play highlighter!! last resort no one to strike the purple highlighter, she drew the screen..gila punyer budak!

just got up from my wonderful slumber on a wonderful bag with a wonderful manly smell!! hahahahahahahaha!! then i go eeek eeekk at the wonderfully pathetic toilet. no soap dispenser, no toilet roll..nothing! luckily the cubicle still intact! of course kudos to tupidd ida for her pathetic 1 piece of tissue paper. no diff siak!!

before the two idiotic idiots come, i was with the more idiotic idiots group. the guys of course. rimaslism siak!! now i and jenggo stead already!! dumb blonde get lost ok!! dun really know what to expect of tonight. hope it's good. but hoping is never good lah...but..sigh...

monn, wish me luck ok!! kau nyer pasal lah ni sumer!! hahahahha

true love has true flavour ok!!

*muacks*

KiD jUniOr

2005-03-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

.:KiD jUniOr:.

Up Above is Cik nOr named specially by Cik nOrmah & my family members...
Pic wuz taken at Orchard Cine while waitin fer our show to start..
Cik nOr wuz tryin so hard to impersonate Ashton Kutcher frm the movie "GUESS WHO" but seriously tk menjadi...
I tink he rather look like "Loki" frm "SON OF THE MASK"...hahaha...

My family adores tis irritatin person & i seriously dunnoe y...especially Mummy whu always ask him to sleep over...can u believe it?
Tis is MY MUMMY we are talkin bout...
Suprisingly...we even went JB together wit Kakak,Omar & nOi..
My...Life is indeed full of suprises...

But I've yet to tank him...fer being der fer me during dos moments..
Even we like known each other fer less den few mnths.. He had been such a MR NICE GUY to me & also my family..
No doubt he is very sopan-santun wit all the makcik-makcik(tis is wat dey claim la)

Tanks fer stayin wit us at the hospital til 4a.m during nenek operation...
Tanks fer stayin wit us at home during my mom's "u noe wat i mean" till 3+a.m...
Tanks fer understandin the plight tat I'm in...the tings tat my family is goin thru at tat moment..

Apart frm my cuzzins & my aunties..u've been my pillar..a fren tat i can approach & talk to...

Tank yOu Cik nOr...

2005-03-21T01:58:00.000+08:00

Always der wen i nid her...wen im down wit a fever... nvr fail to tend to me...
Now she is sick...so sick...she seems different...in daze most of the time...sumtimes it seems tat i dun even noe her...

Im so lonely...lost without her by my side...she always der whenever i woke up frm sleep...now she nt...

Y r dey so superstitious?
Y r dey so heartless?

Dun dey noe wat is right or wrong?
Truth or merely their own theory?

I'm so disappointed..
So upset...

Anibodi by my side?
People whom i tot wud be my pillar..
Shoulder fer me to lean & cry on...
Doesnt turn out to be...

Sad...so sad...

Percayalah kepada Tuhan...
ALLAH S.W.T

Jgnlah depengaruhi dgn pekara-pekara yg salah...

2005-03-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

Haven been bloggin fer quite sum time.... nenek warded back in hospital.... shes in critical condition rite now...

Last Tuesdae wuz crazy fer me & KiD... nenek wuz feelin alrite den... & i wuz at KK on sum "business" wen Shahidda msg me & said tat nenek wuz lookin fer me coz she nid to be operate by tat nite.... rush down to Simei Changi Hospital wit KiD... i sat down by her side til its almost time fer her operation....stayed wit Mummy, Kakak, Cik Normah, Tanisha, Cik Lan & Kid til like 4+ a.m....
Alhamdulillah her operation wuz a success...

But suddenly last nite..her blood pressure rises....her condition wasnt stable..
The Doc said tat the chances of her living is 50/50

She kept sayin...

"Nenek nk balik rumah nenek..rumah nenek dah kemas.."
"Nenek nk songkok nenek yg putih..bersih skali"
"Nenek nk balik naik bus"

She look different...her face is so "clean"...her lips so pink....

Issit time? I dunnoe.... I'm missin her alredi...
Pls get well soon...Pls b strong & remember ALLAH...

Pls fergive me...fer all the arguements we had....
I lurve u...u noe i do...we all do....

Tanks to my frens...zUr & KiD....
Tanks fer being der fer me...tanks fer visitin nenek...

Pls do pray fer her recovery...tank u...

.: Rabiah Bte Sareff :.

2005-03-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

Wuz i too sensitive?
Wuz i over reactin?

Probably....i dunnoe...I'm sorry... it hurts so bad wen u din speak a word...
Never did i regret goin out wit u thou..

Gd nite....ride safely home....

2005-03-12T15:43:00.000+08:00

Everything seems so fine....So perfect wen we were younger...wuz still in secondary skool den but name it...wat we've nvr done...nitin u pple sae fun & thrillin...Now everythin has change..Even thou i'm onli like 20...nt gettin ani younger... actually lots of unhappy stuffs haf change after we actually "quit it"... First it wuz d revealed of "Paseo"...den "CN"...den bad year fer nOi last year...& now its a bad year fer Afa... well our younger/teenage life indeed taught us lots of stuffs... we noe its not right...we noe its wrong but fer the thrill of it..whu cares? We went thru alot together....most importantly...sacrifices...had fun together...we share stuffs...slept on d same small bed together...all 3 of us...no secrets btwn us...

Noi has been gettin on gd wit her job as a Weddin Planner wit "DECORAMA" .
Gettin engage soon in April....gd fer u babe... u've had ur had times...

AFa...wateva decision u make..nOi & i will strongly support u & b der fer u ok....
U had sum wrong moves den..but now...choose d right path ok...tings haf change now...

Well... I?
Graduatin soon in May...hopefully i will do alrite.... & move on to higher nitec or poly...OR.......
Might b retakin my English 'O' Levels tis year...hoping to get better grades...
Gonnna try fer SQ.... recomended by my DiDi Shiela....insyaAllah la kalau dpt...
Gonna prove to "sum pple" tat i can do it also!!!

Gd luck my Charlie's.... we gonna b better & insyaAllah successful babes in future rite?!
I lurve u babes wit all my hart...

2005-03-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

I'm having a splittin headache...i'm so confused...puzzled & troubled!!! Ders so many tings runnin thru my head!! I'm afraid..so afraid..wat if? wat if? wat if? wat am i suppose to do? who shall i go to?who shall i turn to? who is gonna b beside me? who shall be der fer me?

I regret...regret so many tings tat happened in my life..my past..my shitty past...can i turn back the time? Erased all the shitty tings..unhappy..unwanted times?

Y issit happenin?Issit gonna happen?

I dunnoe...I'm not sure...I dun wish to..

2005-03-10T03:36:00.000+08:00

My Dearest Nenek...

My poor nenek had gastrics...warded in Simei Changi Hospital...I'm missin her alredi..I'm alone mow in my room without her..visited her earlier..she look so adorable...Lurve her so much...I'm so afraid of loosing her...but sumtimes she can b quite irritatin..but I stil lurve her wit all my hart...
Get well soon ok Nenek...~

2005-03-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

Just gOt back frm seesha (sumpah aku tk tau spell!) wit Afa & Kid....& nOw i'm having a headache! Damn it man! The most irritatin part is tat my cough is gettin more worse now...
Aniwae...we had apple strawberry i tink..recommended by Azlia..pekerja Al-Majlis yg paling lama nk mampos dah geng jahat aku dulu... we also ate the Bammia which is not bad but nt as gd as Mummy's & we also ate Fish & Chips...

Afa had the silliiiieeesssstt idea..she wuz bloody pissed wit CaCiPal aka Irzuan & she wanted to paitau & run off without paying the bills...sudah nanti tak tak Azlia pangkah aku plak!!! Well even thou she tried so hard to crack stupid jokes but i noe deep down in her shes very upset bout CaCiPal... dun wori ok BaBe...soon the table will turn k!

Nitey....~

I'm sOoo Happy!!!

2005-03-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

F**k! I've been coughin since last weekend...Plus my menses cramps...I can gO bloody crazy man... Actually I waited fer at least a msg frm him since last nite (4 am)..He din actually msg or even reply my calls & msgs...It wuz so upsetting & I wuz feeling bloody miserable even at d chalet.. Can be bothered wit "bOy" sumtimes he do get on my nerves... But wateva it is....

HE MSG ME!!! MA GAWD!!I WUZ SO F**KIN GLAD YA NOE!!

Its just tat I dun wanna lose a great fren like him...pheewwww...

Nitey...Can sleep soundly now unlike last nite....~

2005-03-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

I'm reli...truly...sincerely...honestly....very sori to haf make u cum all d way frm BB to BS...it wuz very sweet of u to fetch me frm my xBf chalet knowin tt i wanted to folo u to JB but ended up being late to mit ur frens... I'm sori i reli cant find my passport & i seriously remembered putting it & in my drawer d last time we went JB..I noe u din actually show tat u were pissed but i can very well sense tat u were F**ckin pissed at me for troubling u... tanks fer buyin me my ciggies..tanks fer fetchin me to & fro everytime we went out...I'm reli reli reli very sori.... I reli hope tis stupit incident wun affect anitin... Sorry....~

2005-03-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

ReCap

2005-02-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm...let me recap ei... went Jb last Thurs wit KiD til i end up not goin to skool on Fridae... spend my Fridae nite wit my Charlie's...nOi is gettin engage soon...miss dos times tat we used to eat ur Nasi Goreng & Fillet goreng wit my special mix drink & Afa forever the Queen tau mkn ajer...

Firstly congrats on ur "merisik" thingy last Sun...nervous kn?!! "Dumplak Dumplak" tk nervous eh?! Hopefully Afa & I will get to be ur bridesmaid soon ei!! But wateva it is...I'm missin d ol times already... Our corky...corny times together especially dos "22" times under the dressing table..

& Yei! I finally got a tanned line...mcm Monn ckp "dah tanned giler babi pon nk tanned lagik"...hahaha...Sat wuz alrite..Sentosa wuz quite Sunny wit zUr, KiD & especially wit me ard..

Sha wuz bloody gettin on nerves...nvr had enuff man!! Dah ader 2 pon nk lagik! Heran arh! Dasyyyaattt... But minus tat "arse"... i OFFICIALLY had fun at "##"..DD,Yana,Hafiz & D wuz der also....kRg jOgEt mcm kaki aku yg nk tercabot...

Seriously my tummy is bloated now...had sting ray,sotong etc..etc at "pui cap goh"..tanks eh nOi & Mr jOhn fEr the wonderful supper..& i'm seriously sorry i cant continue the drinks wit yall at Fisherman okie...

Haf fun "dumplakin" later...probably? ahakz...~

2005-02-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

Its been some time since i update...lots of tings been happenin thou after the OAC camp...happening shit jugak la...the freshies were alrite..interestin jugak la...

Hmmmm...it seems tat Sha is back....AGAIN...but i cudnt b least b bothered wit him..mayb bcoz wit the presence of "DUMPLAK" in my life now...haf been goin out wit him fer quite sum time... very nice guy.. very nice to go out wit him oso...& cant deny he is quite a hunk arh...

Very malas wanna type long long la eh...~

NK TIDO!!!

Wat a day...

2005-02-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

Just came back frm a tiring but indeed a fun day...To keep my distractions frm Shah...Been out since 12.30 inda afternoon..Went Sentosa wit Kid...fu*kin alot of pple...Tourist, foreigners...& I actually mean it! FOREIGNERS!! All the China & alot of BanglaMans...They gawk at u like dey haf nvr seen girls b4!! Had dinner at millennia Walk...& again...alot of pple...wat puzzle me is tat,dun all dos Chinese pple celebrate their New Year? Heesshh..
Wateva it is Happy Cina New Year la...~

Berakhir Di Januari...~

2005-02-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

Berat bebanku
Meninggalkanmu Separuh nafas jiwaku
Sirna...

Bukan salahmu
Apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
Tak berpihak
Pada kita

Kasihku
Sampai disini kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karena kita berbeda

Dengarkan Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini
Melodi rintihan hati ini
Kisah kita berakhir di JUNUARI
Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku
Wow....pergilah

Dun reli wanna go in details...
Sae...saw Him & Her at his club...
Fucked up...
Idiot...
Had fun but indirectly...
Miserable...

GanGsa Nite...~

2005-02-05T13:20:00.000+08:00

Just woke up frm a hell of a nite at Gangsa Rd...hahaha... The PPG Yer Yer O' wanted to do our PJT storyboard...we did it la but like way from half way done...we even played Ira's Winne D Pooh ABC learnin ting & zUr wuz like so carried away wit the Mickey Mouse Masak-Masak game...mcm yer yer aje dia bikin cake but obviously lagi maut zUr's mOm...MEE SOTO without all the daun-daun & rumput-rampai but not leaving the sambal of course...iDa almost finish up all the tissue but luckily i had zUr's tuala hang on my baju...ahakz...

Berg fetch Ida & nOt scrap Faizal fetch me tapikan jgn marah...lida pendek...hahaha..nice boy but too young fer me...ahakz...

I had great time wit both my tupitD grLs...we WILL do it again alrite...Luv u babes...~

i hate myself for....

2005-02-02T03:04:00.000+08:00

Gone just like tat...nOt even a goodbye call... I'm missing u & I will always b... I had a great & a memorable time since d last time we met...the past few months wuz great & kinda kinky thou..but i noe der is no way we can b together..tOdae is d day tat both of u gonna move in to your own apartment...I hope u gonna b happy wit ur wife-2-b & make lotsa chubby babies... nutin can describe how much i adore u...nobodi can take tat place of urs in my hart...pls dun ferget me...~
my best of a FREN....~

wOooHooOoo!!

2005-01-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

Bloody had to wake up at 7.30 inda mornin but class wuz cancelled coz MMT had to pay a visit to Nyp openhouse which is like less den 2 hrs!!! zUr,Ida & i went to RenCi hospital to visit Khai, he look much more better but stil rather a very slow recovery. But at least now he can actually response to us,sedih eh tgk dia mcm tu!!! Hopefully he wil recover soon.. InsyaAllah... D 3 of us had sum fun actually todae..Especially wit Ida monyetness, & tUpiDness!!....KFC & Ida blanja setengah se!!! WoooHooo!! Met Sha a while ago..had fun..corky,corny & horny & free ciggies!! Hahaha!! Ok Bye..7-11 one time wit my Charlie Angels..obviously Noi & Afa...

Sakit Kepala!!

2005-01-20T01:30:00.000+08:00

Its late,skool starts early fer me tomorrow & i cant sleep!! Just hung up wit Sha & as usual...hopes but always shattered after d conversation...he wanted to fetch me after skool tomorrow but i told him not to..sick & tired of his demands but cant resist him sumtimes!!!Gimme a break will ya Sha?!

!@#$%^&*()_+

2005-01-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

ain memang suker menyusahkan hidup aku!!! suker suruh aku buat benda2 susah ni sumer!!! skarfling!!!

zuraidah